1 month passed jus like that...now im back in indo alredi...evrything was jus so quick...Im kinda bored here...reali dunno wat to do...whole day doin nothing, playing piano, watching tv, get on the net at nite...that's my daily routine...Sometimes i reali hope that sch reopens soon...i love hols but not too long...act i hate having exam, i nvr hate goin to sch coz i wont be alone and wont feel bored at all coz i haf my frens ard me...last mth i was back in spore and met all my frens...so happy that i could spent time wif them though not much bt still, i enjoy evry moment wif them...how i wish i could turn back time to sec life...i wanna change bt nw its too late alredi... I cut my finger again...and broke my flash drive' glass cover...hopefully its nt a kinda bad sign...nt wanting to be superstitious bt jus scared sumthing bad might happened...Past few nites cant reali sleep well...i dunno wat im thinking and wat i want...i jus so confused...mebbe i've made a big mistakes...sumtimes i reckon i kinda weird and scared of this and that...and coz of that i always made mistakes which i regretted most of the time...i always spouted out all kinda rubbish when im sad, angry and give a strong character...but i always ended up hurting myself n cry over evry lil' thing...i always wanna act happy, cheerful so that i wont feel sad n so, i wont cry out...Sometimes i feel lk telling someone how i feel or to be my listening ear bt i've got no one to turn to...i cn nvr share this kinda prob wif my family, not even my sista coz im scared they might tell my parents though i tink they won't...sometimes i feel lk telling my close frens bt im also scared that i'll bother them wif my probs...i tink i betta keep to myself still...all i evr wanted is to be happy lk othrs...sumtimes i reali hate teenagers life...its lk the stage in life where u've gt lotsa probs and gotta be stong enuff to overcome it...all the winding path ahead...well well...i;ve seen wat has to be seen, my prayer has finally came true...i'll forget abt all those unhapiness in the past... haha i tink this is kinda lk my diary where i can write almost evrything abt how i feel though not in detailed...i reckon its kinda safer than a book diary as no one can read this coz i dun tink ppl might get to my website that easily and dun tink ppl would bother to read my crap as well...well, kinda alittle relieve after writing it out...gonna sleep soon...